Just a little Summary (a sad one)

I feel like I haven't done a summary for awhile, I think It's time I done one. It's not going to be a good one because I'm kind of feeling at a loose end with how I'm dealing with this year.

So far I'm really behind, I am only half way through my Orrery project at this point when it should already have been done. I've only just started my research for the latest task we have (I haven't made a post about that yet) I don't have much of a reason why I haven't caught up yet when I had so much fun doing the insect task.

I'm feeling VERY overwhelmed by all this work, I feel distracted from my main project and my CS work as I feel like we have so much to do. It's brought back all my fears and doubts and it's brought on a nasty bout of depression and my anxiety is through the roof. I normally suffer from this when I feel there is too much on my shoulders. It's making me wonder, do I deserve to be on this course, why am I on this course ... what's the point, everyone else is making amazing headway and yet here I am. Struggling to draw a glue stick. I haven't established a style, and the style I had two and a half years ago has gone somewhere.

I have all these ideas in my head and every time I try to get them down on paper or in Photoshop but I just end up staring at the screen, I can't make any sense of the blank paper and it makes me want to cry. At this point I understand why so many people quit at the last hurdle, because everything just gets to much. I feel like I can't talk about this to anyone because I don't want to appear like I'm whining (ironic since I feel like I'm whining on here)

I know this will all pass in time, but I don't have time. I'm just hoping I can drag myself out of this hole before it's all too late.

First things first I have to finish my Orrery stuff, then get my Task 3 stuff started .... taking things one at a time I think will be best.

Oh well that was a bad post, hopefully next post I do like this will be a lot more positive.